Monday, October 31, 2016

33!

Today I am 33 years old! And I think that is totally and completely crazy. Crazier still is that I have been married for 5 1/2 years and have two children! WHHAAAATTT!

When I type out sentences like that I feel old, but when I look in the mirror I don't see a 33 year old person - or what I once thought a 33 year old person looked like. For example, when I was 18 or even 22, I thought 33 was old. That I couldn't wear sweat pants anymore, that I would have to cut my hair into a short bob haircut, and start shopping at Lord & Taylor. I don't know where these stereotypes or images came from but that was my vision of 33 year old moms.

I also thought these women had it all together. Not in the "have it all" sense of the word, but at 33 women had plans, they were organized, and their days ran like well oiled machines. I imagined a 33 year old woman's closet was filled with suits and matching shoes, everything ironed, and a fridge filled with well balanced snacks. If that is what 33 is - then I missed the boat!

My boys and I are all born in the same week. I am the final birthday of the palooza so some of the pomp and circumstance has worn off and everyone is tired of cake; however this morning a took a moment and saw how wonderful things were around me.

I admittedly have a "keeping up with the Jones' problem".
If "they" (whoever they are) are moving, maybe we should too.
Oh, they are making this much money - should I get a new job??
Ah! They are switching day cares - what if we don't? Will our kids be behind?

Fortunately I have a sane husband to talk me off the ledge.

SO instead of keeping up, today I am thankful! Thankful I went to that house party in 2005 and met my future husband. Thankful for my 2 million dollar babies that challenge and amaze me every day! Thankful for my fabulous parents to help and love in every single capacity of the word. Thankful for my extended family - in laws, cousins, etc. - for all that they do and that they are (even if it comes with a little drama) and thankful we all have our health, a roof over our heads, and food on the table. I am also thankful I didn't have to cut my hair in a bob ;)

I am thankful that I don't have it all together because how boring would that be!